39 weeks

I am 39 weeks pregnant today. Really, little Jack could arrive any day. I had a baby shower at 38 1/2 weeks, I was doing yard work at 37 weeks, I helped Colin trim bushes yesterday, we went shopping for curtain fabric this morning, and I am playing the organ at church tomorrow. I am really surprised at how well I am doing. I am still able to do almost everything I need to at a relatively comfortable level except get myself upright out of bed. My pelvis hurts when I am stiff and my hips hurt from sleeping on my side. But I did 3 loads of laundry yesterday. 3. And finished setting up everything in Jack's room. I don't know where this energy is coming from. Is this nesting???

I want to remember this pregnancy because it isn't like any of my others will be. I can sit in silence and feel the movements of the little spirit growing inside me. I wince in discomfort when he pushes out my hips and ribs while simultaneously smiling as I think of him practicing those movements for the outside world. This pregnancy has been pretty easy- I didn't get sick at all, I didn't get big until later and I was done with school at 20 weeks. I'm still able to sleep almost all night! All I need is the 3am pee run. That's amazing! I wonder if it's going to all catch up with me with our second child...

I am so excited for Colin to be a Daddy. I can't wait to see him look into our baby's eyes and hold him. I am so lucky to be able to feel Jack so much as he moves. Colin's bonding will mostly happen after baby arrives. Having children is the ultimate goal and prize of being married on this earth. I can't believe that we have the honor and privilege to get a glimpse of heaven as we welcome our first little one into this world and our family.

I woke up this morning at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep. I watched my husband peacefully dreaming and I smiled. I love him so much. He is the most hardworking person I know and he does so much for our little family of almost 3. I sat at the table and finished writing baby shower thank you cards as I ate toast with Grandma Jeannie's Blackberry Jam on it. I remembered that I am 39 weeks pregnant today and felt I needed to write something. The sky outside slowly got a lighter blue, the birds got louder and soon could see the details of the once black silhouettes of neighborhood houses. The spring green of the bushes and the blue of the dawn sky were beautiful. This happens every morning and I usually sleep right through it. I am so glad I saw it this morning. What a miraculous time of the day. Who knows how many mornings I will be able to have sitting at the table, by myself, in silence, watching the world light up. 

ps I drew and colored all the art in Jacks room:)

And thank you Grandma Jeannie for the blanket. I love it so much I want to snuggle with it.

I cant believe this is me. My belly. My body. My baby.

Jack is due in less than three weeks.

Bring on the no sleep, diapers, crying, feeding and bathing.

We can't wait to meet you, little man.

Don't keep us waiting too long.

Thank you Sarah for taking these pictures. I will cherish them for a long time.

36

Holy cow people. I am going to have a baby in a month. A MONTH. I have mixed feelings.

I am so excited to meet him, look at his little face, to touch his little hands and feet.

I am looking forward to being able to walk like a regular person.

I don't know what birthing a baby is going to be like.

I will miss feeling him move in my belly and wondering what body parts he's exercising.

I wonder how I will cope with never sleeping.

I wonder how much time I will spend staring at him instead of something "productive."

I wonder when hes going to come.

I wonder what hes going to look like.

I am looking forward to putting on socks like a normal person.

I want to sleep on my back. So bad.

I wonder what his temperament is going to be like.

I wonder how Colin is going to do with everything.

I am excited.

I am scared.

I am confused.

But this is the chapter of my life I have been waiting for. To have children.

Colin's getting a boy first. Oh boy.

Friends

I have to accept the fact that I am going to look super tired in almost all of my pictures about now in my pregnancy. But this is me and my wonderful friend Heather. She and her husband stayed with us before they few out of the Salt Lake Airport on a trip. It was so nice to see friends from Rexburg. She is due three weeks after I am. We needed a pregnant picture together! Next time we see eachother, we will most likely both have little munchkins in our arms!

Olivia is and always will be my sister. We were roommates my first semester at BYU Idaho and we discovered that we have the same birthday- same year and everything! I am a few hours older.... She was called to serve in Texas and went into the MTC in March. I am SO proud of her and I am so happy that I was able to see her before she left. Best of luck on your mission darling! Jack cant wait to meet you when you get back!

This is our house. Just me and Colin and soon to come Jack. WE LIVE HERE. I cant believe it. We moved in at the beginning of March and have loved every minute of it. Well all except when I see a spider which has happened a few times, screams and all. We are redoing two of the rooms upstairs that had hideous pink and red carpets in them. One will be Jacks room. I cant wait to get all of his things set up and ready for his arrival. We have been working hard scraping wallpaper, plastering and painting walls, and ripping up the carpet. We discovered beautiful wood floors that Colin is sanding down and refinishing. They look awesome!

Uhhh deer come through our backyard from time to time......

And this is what I do best nowadays- hangin out! I went to the park with Hannah, Sarah and all their little ones on a beautiful sunny day. It was so nice to be outside, especially when rockin the 35 week pregnant belly!

Colin playing with toys

Colin is loving his new garage. He now has space to put his lathe that he bought so long ago. He also bought a drill press so he can make pens. He has made a few and they look amazing!