Dear Jack,

I have been feeling more and more pregnant lately. My back hurts, I pee ALL the time, I take naps as often as you and I eat way too much chocolate. It has had me thinking about the new baby coming next year.

 

You had a little bit of a hard day- a few falls, late nap, people got too close to you at church, your toys were put away instead of all over the floor- quite a list of tragedy. We decided to put you in bed early. After an hour, you were still rolling around and blabbing so I went in to say hi. I scooped you up.

 

Now you are not a particularly snuggly boy. Lately, you've learned to hug, kiss and be 'gentle' but not really snuggly. But tonight, I held you in the rocking chair with your body sprawled over mine and your head resting in the crook of my arm. In the dim light, you blinked slowly as you looked at the nightlight designs on the ceiling. Then you looked in my eyes at smiled. Your face went blurry as my eyes filled with tears. Be my baby forever. Always fit in my arm and on my lap. Giggle at the smallest things.

 

No matter how many siblings you have, you are the baby that made me a mother. I love you. A part of you will never grow up in my heart.

 

Love, Mommy

Happiest Place on Earth

We took Jack to Disneyland for his first time. I have to admit, a part of me didn't think it would be worth taking him so young- he probably wont remember it, wouldn't like rides, would be cranky- all the usual things that would go through a mothers head. 

I am SO glad I didn't listen to myself. We had an amazing time. Jack loved all the rides we went on. He didn't get scared of the dark or loud noises. His favorite rides were Its a Small World and the Teacups. Buzz Lightyear was also fun because he found the lever that spins your seat- we went in circles the whole time. Colin was able to go on all the crazy rides with his brothers and nephews. I went on Space Mountain and Indiana Jones which was the extent of my intense rides. I am surprised I didn't throw up being pregnant but I LOVE those two rides. 

We went with Colin's family. Six kids, their parents and the grandparents. Quite the entourage but so fun. We spit into groups and did little kid rides, got fast passes, visited Mickey and Santa- we did it all.

I never went to Disneyland as a kid. I do not blame my parents. Its expensive and can be stressful. I can only imagine what loosing a kid at Disneyland would be like. Colin, on the other hand, went at least every two years of his life. He knows all the ins and outs of the park. We made this trip happen and it was worth every penny- the time with family, the smiles on Jacks face and the feeling you get from Christmas is Disneyland was so awesome. I can make it through the Holiday season now that we took a few days off for a family vacation.

Utah welcomed us home with a foot of snow right after we got back
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